Just not sure what to title this entry. To sum it up my feelings are all over the place right now. I've been worrying a little to my self the last couple days. Mostly about the upcoming changes in my life, our lives I should say. There's so much to do, and only a few months , or less to get it all done, I guess I feel a little overwhelmed.
Annaleese needs to get the potty training thing down.
The nursery needs some work before I/we can even start decorating and organizing. All the stuff that's currently in the room needs to be moved, which means I have to get creative in finding new places for it.
I've found my self, worrying and even dreaming about how Annaleese is going to receive and handle the change that is going to take place once "Baby Sister" arrives. I worry how she will feel. Will she be jealous. Will she act out even more than she has been. Will she feel included. Will she like having a baby sister. Or will she be completely easy going about the whole thing, and really not care. I'm probably stressing out about this for no reason, but still I cab't help but wonder.
With the terrible back pain I've been experiencing and how much worse it is in the pregnancy than it was in the first, I find my self wondering if or how much worse it can get, and what does that mean for the labor process? I had back labor with Annaleese, which was NOT FUN and very painful. Could it happen again and be more painful?
Sometimes I wonder if the back pain is going to limit me further from getting the most basic and easy house chores done, or looking after Annaleese. I try to take it as easy as I can as it is, as far as the household chores go, I try even harder not to lift Annaleese, but getting her in and out of the car makes that hard. It makes it harder for me to let her be a little more independant. She likes to walk instead of being put in the stroller or shopping cart, but I just dont't have the strength or energy to chase after her.
What bothers me the most is that I feel like I am constantly complaining about how crappy my body feels and that I have little energy even on a good day. And I'm not even in the third trimester, which is probably the most awkward part of pregnancy. Nothing like a huge stomach to make you so uncomfortable you can't sleep add to that the summer heat, it's a fabulous mix. On the upside I'm halfway there.
